I Lift up my Soul

To You, Oh Lord,

I lift up my soul.

When I am helpless

but not hopeless,

I give myself,

over to You,

for I have been

a poor caretaker,

having abandoned my spirit

too many times,

having forgotten it, left it outside,

cold and wet, during the storm,

having left it to fend for itself 

when it was starving,

having ignored its cries

when it was thirsty,

and so, I bring myself

back to You, Lord,

back to my Creator,

the One who first breathed life

to my soul and set

me on this journey.

Lord, I have failed You.

My spirit is broken,

broken but breathing.

There is life in me yet.

Heal me, Lord, on this day.

Fix me, mend me, strengthen me,

and then shove me, throw me,

push me out onto the path,

because that is how much faith

You have in me.  You know I can do this.

And that is the faith

I need right now.

Your faith, Lord. 

So, gladden my soul please.

It is You that I need.

Amen.

Psalm 86:4